Ok I think I am finally ready. I'm ready to make a commitment to myself. I have packed on way too many pounds since my husband died 6 years ago and accumulated way too much "stuff". I think I have been hiding behind my weight and clutter. I'm ready to take my life back. I want to not only look great but I want to feel great. I had great success 4 years ago with Weight Watchers. I know what I need to eat and I know I need to exercise. I am just in a rut and I am ready to get out of it!! I have finally started getting rid of unnecessary clutter in my house and garage. I have to decide what I have emotional attachment to, why am I emotionally attached, and would my life fall apart if I no longer had this item. The reason I mention my household clutter is I believe it contributes to my brain clutter which in turn is a contributing factor to my weight issues.
OK so I have made the first step on the household clutter. Now on to myself. I made a call to a fitness center that is located on my way home from work. They have very reasonable rates. Although I don't have the extra $25 month, I do believe in the long run it is an investment I cannot pass up. I think financially things will fall into place. I will no longer pay bills late thus accumulating late fees and then worrying about having the money to pay a bill, eating because I am stressed about it. It's all a vicious cycle. This is why I must take my life back.
Back to the fitness center. I am very excited to get back into physical fitness. I can become quite obsessed with it. Truth be told, I would love to become a certified personal trainer and work with overweight grade school and high schools kids who feel like they don't fit in. I want to be their safe haven and teach them how to become the best they can be. They don't have to be skinny...just healthy. I would work with adults too. Anyone who needs help getting on the right track.
I am stopping tomorrow after work to check out the fitness center I have chosen to make sure it's the right fit for me. I have made a decision not to tell anyone other than my daughter that I am doing this. I guess part of me is afraid of failing again but part of me wants to "WOW" everyone with my transformation.
So that's it in a nutshell. I'm ready to start a new chapter in my life and I can't wait to see what is around the corner for me!!
